The other day, I was listening to a segment on NPR about how people cope with the feeling of being out of control. Not surprisingly, humans have a pretty low tolerance for a lack of control – it’s very unpleasant for us, and we will try almost anything to regain the sense that we’re in control.
Recently, I’ve been reflecting on how little control we actually have in our lives. This isn’t to say that we don’t have ANY control of our circumstances, because we do have some. We can control a little, we can influence more, but a large portion of our circumstances is beyond our capability to control. Recently, I’ve been reminded of this in some difficult ways:
I couldn’t control when my dad had a significant health scare this summer, and I can’t control if he will make healthy lifestyle changes.
I couldn’t control my health on the way to Africa when I got the flu, and couldn’t control it when I got sick while I was there.
I couldn’t control the poisonous spider that bit me in the middle of the night in my sleep.
I can’t control the economy and how that affects my fundraising.
I can’t control how the men and women I work with on a daily basis respond to me or how they respond to God.
There are a ton of very significant things in my life that I can’t control. That’s just how it is. I like to believe that I have control, it would be much easier and much more comfortable that way. Most of us live like this; we live our lives believing that we are in control. This is an illusion.
This is not new news. We’ve probably heard this before, and believe that it’s true, but we still choose to live in the illusion. I know I give serious lip service to God. I tell Him that I know He is Lord and in control, but I still choose to live the lie that I am in control. And my desire for control ends up fills me with fear and anxiety and robs me of the life God wants for me.
What if we actually lived in a way that acknowledged that we didn’t have control? What if we recognized that our only security could be found in God? How would we live differently? What if we stopped giving God lip service and started actually living our lives as though He were in control?
How can we ditch the illusion?
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